Moving has become a much more trying experience than I thought it was going to be. I was spoiled with great friends in Toledo, we hung out every day this summer until all hours of the morning. When I moved I knew it wasn't going to be easy finding new friends, or meeting new people..but I thought it was going to be easier than this. I'm usually a pretty outgoing person, and I warm up to the people I meet very quickly- but here that has not been the case. I've met a few people, but it's been very very difficult. I cannot drive, so i do not have a job and I'm just left at my house during the day while my dog is at work- i have my loyal(ish) dog Chase to keep me some company..it's very lonely, and it's hard.
Other than that, I usually just sit at home trying to think of things to do, be content with myself, and try to not go stir crazy. What gets me so upset is that I know life is precious and short. I want to enjoy every moment, not be bored with life, and if I am bored- change that. Learn something new, try something new- etc. I've done about everything now. One thing that's really kept me going is reading the bible, and rereading prayer journals and journals I've kind of kept up with through the years. After I have a little session with God, I am inspired, full of his Joy, Happy because I know the life I want to live, and I'm ready to live it!!
Then I all of the sudden get more emotional and begin to grow sad and depressed about missing my friends and just feeling completely alone. I try looking up and reminding myself about the things God had just shown me, but I can't seem to turn it around. And I know I can talk to people about this but I choose not to because it's happening so often, and I know they will really only be able to say the same things that they did to me beforehand. This upcoming semester i'm supposed to be working, but since I don't have a license at the moment, I have to wait and stay at the house. I've decided to really use this time to work on myself, my relationship with God, and it's already become a huge challenge.
It's looking like I'll be going to college back near my hometown in the Spring Semester which starts in January..which really inst that far away. But when you have this much alone time with yourself. it makes it very hard. I can't spend this much time with myself. I'm in a much better mood right now than i was when i updated my twitter earlier. This is probably going to change throughout the night though- so be expecting another blog post soon. If you took the time to read this, thank you- i really appreciate it. It's just me rambling about me being annoyed with myself--and ts become this viscous cycle. Do any of you guys have advice possibly? I'm not sure what you could advise on =/
Well I hope you all have a fantastic last few minutes of your night, or a Great Day!! (depending on what time it is where you are)
<3>
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
I'm Sure You've Seen This already..but just in case
I'm sorry to do this but if you have a facebook please join this group. I am trying to win a scholarship for $20,000 by having creating the biggest Facebook site for the College assistance type site---Zinch
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I need at least 34,000 people by March 16th. This will be the difference between me going to college and joining the military
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Saturday, February 21, 2009
Nate Wilson- Memoir
I was the fifth child born into our family. When I was born, Nate was 12, Jon nine, Christopher would have been six (he had passed away before I was born due to phenomena), and Justin was three. The older I grew, the more I enjoyed getting to play games with them, and try to join in their football games, which for me was monkey in the middle. I wanted to do the same things they did, have the same friends, and grow up to be like them. Nate and Jon always seemed to be best friends, while Justin and I always seemed to be fighting over small little mishaps. He would see me playing with his “G.I. Joe” and would get very upset; all I wanted was for Barbie to marry someone other than my teddy bear. Jon and I got along fine growing up. He is more reserved and didn’t like to be bothered. Lucky for Jon, Justin was whom I would always go to, asking annoying questions and bothering him with wanting to play all the time.
Nate and I however were inseparable. Nate was the joking older brother who always knew how to lighten a mood. Whenever he would walk in the room you couldn’t help but smile or laugh. There would be nights that I would wake up with growing pains, and he insisted that eating ice cream would make them go away, which they did! The older we both got, the closer we grew. One time he took me to the doctor, and on our way back we stopped at the gas station. Nate gave me money to get a candy bar, and the man working commented on how nice “my father” was to let me get candy. We found this to be very funny, considering I was only 8 and he was 20 . That same trip he was singing Shania Twain at the top of his lungs just to get me to smile, and even let me shift the gear to his truck. I thought that meant he taught me how to drive, so I made sure to tell all my friends.
Our family was pretty close, we seemed to have everything put together, and working in our favor. Both parents had a job; we were going to church, and had everything we needed. While I was in the fourth grade, several changes had happened. Nate was working at Findlay High School as a Construction teacher, Jon was moving to Chicago for college, while Justin and I were still at home. However, those changes were the least of our concerns. Our grandma had passed away that winter, as well as our father losing his job, and our parents becoming separated. These all happened very suddenly, and were also completely unexpected. I didn’t think much about the divorce since it seemed many people were getting divorced in society; however Nate and Jon took the news hard. They didn’t want this divorce to separate the brothers and I from being friends, or together. They both promised each other not to leave us, that one would be living with us until we were on our way off to college.
After several months, our family had seemingly adjusted well to these new changes. April 27th was a Friday night that my mother, Justin and I used to stay at home and watch TV together. We were watching N.C.I.S., and I remember during a specific scene they showed, I had this weird sensation inside of me that something bad had happened. I would always get scared while watching that show, so I assumed that feeling was just about the show. About 30 minutes later we have a knock on our door; it was late so we were curious to know who it might be. My mom answered the door, and not too long after, a police officer, our neighbor, and mother walk into the kitchen. None of them make eye contact with us, but I could tell by their body language something wasn’t right, so I walked up to them. When I approached, I softly said, “did someone die?” and before they answered, I knew it was Nate.
At that moment, time seemed to have just stopped. It didn’t seem as though it really happened. Within an hour we had at least 20 people over to our house, neighbors, family, except two people, my father and Jon. I’m not sure how my dad found out, but I do know, that very evening he and our neighbor drove to Chicago to tell Jon the news, and bring him home. It wasn’t until later in the evening someone told me Nate died in a car accident.
That night was filled with much uncertainty, hopelessness, and confusion. Nate was my best friend, and trying to comprehend not seeing someone who had always been a part of my life was unfathomable. Four years later I found out more information about his accident. It was hurtful that I didn’t know the true reason Nate had died, regardless of it if was to protect me. A neighbor of ours, who was 17, was the one that accidentally mentioned something. She was telling me a conversation she had with my mom about M.A.D.D. Right then, I knew that I hadn’t been told the truth. I still, till this day, do not know the full story, but I do know Nate had been drinking beforehand at a bar with some colleagues from work. There might have been a verbal fight about something at the bar, which caused Nate to drive off, while he was intoxicated. His car did go off the road, collided with a tree, causing his car to flip over.
Although losing someone you love is something no one wants to endure, it is a part of life. Dealing with it at a younger age and a more personal level may have been a little hard at first, but it has taught me some lessons people will live a lifetime trying to learn. My mom was protecting me from knowing the reason Nate died because she didn’t want me remembering him for how he died, but for how he lived his life. He did make a mistake that night, but he lived a very fulfilling life and is still affecting lives today. Nate had a relationship with God that I didn’t really understand. He always had this passion that was driving him in everything he did. I was determined to know what that passion was, so I began going to the church he used to go to, and got very involved. When people hear more about my life they usually question how I can stand God after the things I have been through. The verse 1 Corinthians 1:3-5 talks about how even though I might be going through a rough time, I will be able to comfort others when they are dealing with similar situations, which I in return found comforting.
One of the main lessons Nate taught me was from the last time I saw him. We were arguing about something very petty and I, being a very stubborn child, and wanted to be right. As he was walking out the door he was waiting for a hug from me and said, “You should give me a hug because you never know if or when the next time you’re going to see me will be.” Did I go and hug him? No. I was too stubborn. Because of him saying that, it reminds me to not fight with people over the little things. We do not have much time in this life and why should we waste this treasured time being angry with others. No one knows when their time is going to cease, which makes me realize, I wouldn’t want to die and the last memory someone has with me being arguing about spilt milk. All the cliché quotes about “living life to the fullest”, are true! They are easy to say, however to make that your mentality of what you revolve your days around takes a little more effort. Live each day to its full potential.
Nate and I however were inseparable. Nate was the joking older brother who always knew how to lighten a mood. Whenever he would walk in the room you couldn’t help but smile or laugh. There would be nights that I would wake up with growing pains, and he insisted that eating ice cream would make them go away, which they did! The older we both got, the closer we grew. One time he took me to the doctor, and on our way back we stopped at the gas station. Nate gave me money to get a candy bar, and the man working commented on how nice “my father” was to let me get candy. We found this to be very funny, considering I was only 8 and he was 20 . That same trip he was singing Shania Twain at the top of his lungs just to get me to smile, and even let me shift the gear to his truck. I thought that meant he taught me how to drive, so I made sure to tell all my friends.
Our family was pretty close, we seemed to have everything put together, and working in our favor. Both parents had a job; we were going to church, and had everything we needed. While I was in the fourth grade, several changes had happened. Nate was working at Findlay High School as a Construction teacher, Jon was moving to Chicago for college, while Justin and I were still at home. However, those changes were the least of our concerns. Our grandma had passed away that winter, as well as our father losing his job, and our parents becoming separated. These all happened very suddenly, and were also completely unexpected. I didn’t think much about the divorce since it seemed many people were getting divorced in society; however Nate and Jon took the news hard. They didn’t want this divorce to separate the brothers and I from being friends, or together. They both promised each other not to leave us, that one would be living with us until we were on our way off to college.
After several months, our family had seemingly adjusted well to these new changes. April 27th was a Friday night that my mother, Justin and I used to stay at home and watch TV together. We were watching N.C.I.S., and I remember during a specific scene they showed, I had this weird sensation inside of me that something bad had happened. I would always get scared while watching that show, so I assumed that feeling was just about the show. About 30 minutes later we have a knock on our door; it was late so we were curious to know who it might be. My mom answered the door, and not too long after, a police officer, our neighbor, and mother walk into the kitchen. None of them make eye contact with us, but I could tell by their body language something wasn’t right, so I walked up to them. When I approached, I softly said, “did someone die?” and before they answered, I knew it was Nate.
At that moment, time seemed to have just stopped. It didn’t seem as though it really happened. Within an hour we had at least 20 people over to our house, neighbors, family, except two people, my father and Jon. I’m not sure how my dad found out, but I do know, that very evening he and our neighbor drove to Chicago to tell Jon the news, and bring him home. It wasn’t until later in the evening someone told me Nate died in a car accident.
That night was filled with much uncertainty, hopelessness, and confusion. Nate was my best friend, and trying to comprehend not seeing someone who had always been a part of my life was unfathomable. Four years later I found out more information about his accident. It was hurtful that I didn’t know the true reason Nate had died, regardless of it if was to protect me. A neighbor of ours, who was 17, was the one that accidentally mentioned something. She was telling me a conversation she had with my mom about M.A.D.D. Right then, I knew that I hadn’t been told the truth. I still, till this day, do not know the full story, but I do know Nate had been drinking beforehand at a bar with some colleagues from work. There might have been a verbal fight about something at the bar, which caused Nate to drive off, while he was intoxicated. His car did go off the road, collided with a tree, causing his car to flip over.
Although losing someone you love is something no one wants to endure, it is a part of life. Dealing with it at a younger age and a more personal level may have been a little hard at first, but it has taught me some lessons people will live a lifetime trying to learn. My mom was protecting me from knowing the reason Nate died because she didn’t want me remembering him for how he died, but for how he lived his life. He did make a mistake that night, but he lived a very fulfilling life and is still affecting lives today. Nate had a relationship with God that I didn’t really understand. He always had this passion that was driving him in everything he did. I was determined to know what that passion was, so I began going to the church he used to go to, and got very involved. When people hear more about my life they usually question how I can stand God after the things I have been through. The verse 1 Corinthians 1:3-5 talks about how even though I might be going through a rough time, I will be able to comfort others when they are dealing with similar situations, which I in return found comforting.
One of the main lessons Nate taught me was from the last time I saw him. We were arguing about something very petty and I, being a very stubborn child, and wanted to be right. As he was walking out the door he was waiting for a hug from me and said, “You should give me a hug because you never know if or when the next time you’re going to see me will be.” Did I go and hug him? No. I was too stubborn. Because of him saying that, it reminds me to not fight with people over the little things. We do not have much time in this life and why should we waste this treasured time being angry with others. No one knows when their time is going to cease, which makes me realize, I wouldn’t want to die and the last memory someone has with me being arguing about spilt milk. All the cliché quotes about “living life to the fullest”, are true! They are easy to say, however to make that your mentality of what you revolve your days around takes a little more effort. Live each day to its full potential.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Highschool...
This was from my Facebook note
I have read some very enlightening notes recently, and they all have gotten me to think a little deeper into where I am in life right now. I really wanted to also write one, but I knew that mine would sound like poop in comparison to theirs. But who's to judge, this is something that has been bothering me for awhile now and I'm just going to throw it out here, no poeticness, fancy words [my writing skills just aren't as fantastic as some of yours so that's my attempt to make an excuse for mine =) ]
Ohhh Good ole' High school. Many seniors at this point are thinking about what they are going to do after they graduate, whether it be finding a college, or even trying to find a career they are really interested in. But right now a lot of us are coming to the realization that we are not going to be here much longer. And although I may not have known you guys since elementary school, or way back when we were in diapers, I have been blessed to have met some great people at [insert school name here], some friends have stuck, some people I just talk to in school, or wave to in the hallway =) I've always been that girl who doesn't really have many friends in her own grade, and is friends with the upperclassmen and the older i got, I became that upper classmen and now I have loads of underclassmen friends which I love.
Yeah..this note isn't going where I planned lol
When I was a youngster, I would always think about how cool the high schoolers are, and how I can't wait to be one of them, and maybe even as cool as them. I would be all shy and bashful when a high school girl would wave at me because I wanted to be just like them. The closer I got to high school, I did grow more mature, but that first day of high school, I remember that I didn't want to be seen as a freshman. I was determined to be myself, but not one of those annoying freshman..I'm not sure how that worked out, but I think that the majority of people around me were doing the same thing.
Now finally being that senior I always waited to be, it seems the incoming classes have changed. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm a senior..idk but here it is. The incoming classes are still acting like they are in junior high. NOT ALL OF THEM, but a lot of them. The little quarrels about who likes who, cute, but when it comes to friendships, high school is different. You don't need to have a third party to tell someone about how you don't like them, or how you are mad that you heard from joe that Mary said Sam was texting you...confused? yes i have no clue what i just said
"High School is supposed to prepare you for college"
we have all heard that..but its not only high school, everyday prepares you for college and the future, you are always going to be in a situation where you might not like someone, and you are going to have to live with that. You might not be able to ignore that person even if you really despise them, but you don't need to be hard on them or keep secrets. I have really realized that it's best to talk to the person you are having a problem with. I mean, who better to talk to about a problem the 2 of you are having, than with each other!
I'm not going to apologize for writing this long note and not making sense (im listening to music so im getting distracted) but I just wanted to say this
Take advantage (or should i say don't take advantage..) of the time you have with the people around you. The people we are so used to seeing everyday, aren't always going to be there. It really is hard to wrap my mind around, but I know I am really going to appreciate the time I have to know all of you =D
<3
I have read some very enlightening notes recently, and they all have gotten me to think a little deeper into where I am in life right now. I really wanted to also write one, but I knew that mine would sound like poop in comparison to theirs. But who's to judge, this is something that has been bothering me for awhile now and I'm just going to throw it out here, no poeticness, fancy words [my writing skills just aren't as fantastic as some of yours so that's my attempt to make an excuse for mine =) ]
Ohhh Good ole' High school. Many seniors at this point are thinking about what they are going to do after they graduate, whether it be finding a college, or even trying to find a career they are really interested in. But right now a lot of us are coming to the realization that we are not going to be here much longer. And although I may not have known you guys since elementary school, or way back when we were in diapers, I have been blessed to have met some great people at [insert school name here], some friends have stuck, some people I just talk to in school, or wave to in the hallway =) I've always been that girl who doesn't really have many friends in her own grade, and is friends with the upperclassmen and the older i got, I became that upper classmen and now I have loads of underclassmen friends which I love.
Yeah..this note isn't going where I planned lol
When I was a youngster, I would always think about how cool the high schoolers are, and how I can't wait to be one of them, and maybe even as cool as them. I would be all shy and bashful when a high school girl would wave at me because I wanted to be just like them. The closer I got to high school, I did grow more mature, but that first day of high school, I remember that I didn't want to be seen as a freshman. I was determined to be myself, but not one of those annoying freshman..I'm not sure how that worked out, but I think that the majority of people around me were doing the same thing.
Now finally being that senior I always waited to be, it seems the incoming classes have changed. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm a senior..idk but here it is. The incoming classes are still acting like they are in junior high. NOT ALL OF THEM, but a lot of them. The little quarrels about who likes who, cute, but when it comes to friendships, high school is different. You don't need to have a third party to tell someone about how you don't like them, or how you are mad that you heard from joe that Mary said Sam was texting you...confused? yes i have no clue what i just said
"High School is supposed to prepare you for college"
we have all heard that..but its not only high school, everyday prepares you for college and the future, you are always going to be in a situation where you might not like someone, and you are going to have to live with that. You might not be able to ignore that person even if you really despise them, but you don't need to be hard on them or keep secrets. I have really realized that it's best to talk to the person you are having a problem with. I mean, who better to talk to about a problem the 2 of you are having, than with each other!
I'm not going to apologize for writing this long note and not making sense (im listening to music so im getting distracted) but I just wanted to say this
Take advantage (or should i say don't take advantage..) of the time you have with the people around you. The people we are so used to seeing everyday, aren't always going to be there. It really is hard to wrap my mind around, but I know I am really going to appreciate the time I have to know all of you =D
<3
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Day 4
This is working out
I'm realizing how much I truly did miss working out, how happy it makes me, and how it helps to relieve stress!
After I was working out though, I realized I was worn out, but still not so happy. I was trying to fight this situation I'm in on my own. But no one can do it one their own. So I remembered the commitment I have made to myself and God, and it really helped me out
Wooo
I will be able to make my Monday video tomorrow since I will workout tomorrow and that will make 5 days in a row
The SuperBowl means nothing to me this year. I used to get into football, and it was fun and the parties, but I've realized I have been depressed lately, and thats why I'm on my computer so much. I have a phobia of asking people to hang out for some reason. there's more to it than that- haha and I'm really assuming no one is reading this, so if you are, thanks for letting me vent to you
Have a fun night, whatever it is you do!!
I think I'm just going to chill in my room- i don't want to face my dad right now =/
I'm realizing how much I truly did miss working out, how happy it makes me, and how it helps to relieve stress!
After I was working out though, I realized I was worn out, but still not so happy. I was trying to fight this situation I'm in on my own. But no one can do it one their own. So I remembered the commitment I have made to myself and God, and it really helped me out
Wooo
I will be able to make my Monday video tomorrow since I will workout tomorrow and that will make 5 days in a row
The SuperBowl means nothing to me this year. I used to get into football, and it was fun and the parties, but I've realized I have been depressed lately, and thats why I'm on my computer so much. I have a phobia of asking people to hang out for some reason. there's more to it than that- haha and I'm really assuming no one is reading this, so if you are, thanks for letting me vent to you
Have a fun night, whatever it is you do!!
I think I'm just going to chill in my room- i don't want to face my dad right now =/
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Watermelon, yummm
I finally worked out!
it felt so great to finally get started again
Yeahhh..I could feel it right when I started
but I pushed myself to keep up with it because I know if I want to do well, I have to try
I'm going to have to tone it down because "Core Rhythms" (as seen on TV) is challenging
I remember when I used to think it was easy..
hopefully that day comes back soon
nooo these are not Christmas colors, its more, like a watermelon =p
p.s. I dropped french today, and that took off a tonnn of stress
p.p.s. I'm working on making my blogs here shorter and not just aimless rambling
--like i do when i talk--
Thanks for being my friend ;)
Oh Yeah *** I want to get my haircut but idk how, this is when it was shorter
not the shortest its ever been by any means, but any advice would be lovely =)
Yeahhh..I could feel it right when I started
but I pushed myself to keep up with it because I know if I want to do well, I have to try
I'm going to have to tone it down because "Core Rhythms" (as seen on TV) is challenging
I remember when I used to think it was easy..
hopefully that day comes back soon
nooo these are not Christmas colors, its more, like a watermelon =p
p.s. I dropped french today, and that took off a tonnn of stress
p.p.s. I'm working on making my blogs here shorter and not just aimless rambling
--like i do when i talk--
Thanks for being my friend ;)
Oh Yeah *** I want to get my haircut but idk how, this is when it was shorter
not the shortest its ever been by any means, but any advice would be lovely =)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
No more Fluff
No more fluff!
All last week, I could not stop thinking about how I want my heart to be on fire for God again, and how much I want to fall in love with him all over again!
I'm sure some of you know what I mean.
Now it's just a matter of making it happen, and making a change in my life. I've been lazy. SO LAZY! Going through all these things, thinking I can do it on my own kind of deal. It's not that I drifted from God on purpose, I guess things were going so great in my life then, that I stopped thanking God for helping me out
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Verb: "It's what you do"
Even though right now I am completely wound up about starting all these things like my relationship with God and taking care of myself, I know it's still going to be WAY hard. My friend Clare and I have been talking a ton about this lately, and we just really want to be healthy. I've already been doing bad. I can't seem to Start! So. today I finally did take the first step, and I'm going to say right now that I WILL workout tomorrowI'm going to be holding myself accountable on here, since I'm online all the time.
1. No new video post until I exercise 5 days in a row
2. Posting a Blog at least every other day (not about to set myself up for too much failure)
3. Prove to people and MYSELF that I can make things
happen for my own life if I really want them to
If you read this, your awesome
prayers comments, messages on youtube, anything would be helping me in ways you couldn't begin to imagine! <3>
Monday, January 19, 2009
This Prayer someone emailed me
It was one of those @fw emails, I almost didn't even read it, but then considering who it was from, I knew she meant something by the words in the prayer. I hope this might help you, as it did for me
> Dear God:
> The girl reading this
> is beautiful, classy and
> strong, and I love her.
> Help her live her life to the fullest.
> Please promote her and cause her to excel above her
> expectations.
> Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible
> to love.
> Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you
> the most. and
> let her know when she walks with you,
> She will always be safe.
> Love you Girl!!!!
> Now you're on the clock!!!!
> In 9 minutes something will make you happy. ;-)
> But you have to tell 9 sisters you love them, including me.
((You don't have to do the whole clock thing, but I would love it if we could keep spreading this
Message))
<3 Kristin
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Tester
sorry, i know you all know me from youtube but looks like there is a new embed this channel button and i was curious to see what it looked like, here goes nothing
Monday, January 12, 2009
Clearing my head so I can study
Woooo
These are my last exams that I will have to take as a senior.
It's killing me, I really do not want to study but I know that I need to!
And I will study, it's just taking a lot longer to get there than i anticipated. It just seems like the nights are going to fast now, its already 8.
This got me thinking about what it would be like to not be in school..I mean, It's going to be so odd. To think that school is basically all we know, even if we do have a job, or extra curricular activities. I cannot wrap my mind around finally getting out of this school. I remember when I was younger, in elementary school, looking up to the seniors like "Wow, they are soo cool, i want to be like them." and "Man thats sooo far away, its never going to come!"
Now, here I am..senior year, and it's almost over. I am not sure that I'm the senior I wanted to be when I was younger. If anything, I would want to be remembered for the senior who was usually always happy, and tried to make others happy and feel included.
I really have no clue what I'm going to be doing after but I know that I want to help people. I really want to make a difference, and I feel that doing something with Missions is where God might want me. My Band director has been a big help, and is helping me scope out options for what I can do when I graduate. I believe there is a recruiter coming soon who is going to talk to be about not only being in the band (because that way i could get some money, its not what i want to do for my whole life) but also looking into other professions within the military that might be suitable for me.
You have to understand that this director has been like a dad to me throughout high school. And he is one that also mentioned me doing military before I even told him it was a consideration, and also he thought maybe even full time and make that my profession.
I'm not really sure how I feel about all of this, all I know is that right now my school work is important and I have not been making it a priority mainly because I've been letting other things distract me (more than just skype and youtube). I'm not too young to be thinking about these things. Whenever people told me that, the years just seemed to roll by, and here I am with no clue what I'm doing. (this is where I need to just take it to God tbh) if you read any part of this, maybe this is the part to read. I'm not saying that you have to know what you want to do right now by any means! But don't just slide it off, keep thinking about the things that you enjoy, and whatever else intrests you.
Don't let other people write your life story. If there is something you want to do and are passionate about it (willing, it is safe and wont hurt other people) then go for it. If you are determined enough, you will be able to get what you want.
These are my last exams that I will have to take as a senior.
It's killing me, I really do not want to study but I know that I need to!
And I will study, it's just taking a lot longer to get there than i anticipated. It just seems like the nights are going to fast now, its already 8.
This got me thinking about what it would be like to not be in school..I mean, It's going to be so odd. To think that school is basically all we know, even if we do have a job, or extra curricular activities. I cannot wrap my mind around finally getting out of this school. I remember when I was younger, in elementary school, looking up to the seniors like "Wow, they are soo cool, i want to be like them." and "Man thats sooo far away, its never going to come!"
Now, here I am..senior year, and it's almost over. I am not sure that I'm the senior I wanted to be when I was younger. If anything, I would want to be remembered for the senior who was usually always happy, and tried to make others happy and feel included.
I really have no clue what I'm going to be doing after but I know that I want to help people. I really want to make a difference, and I feel that doing something with Missions is where God might want me. My Band director has been a big help, and is helping me scope out options for what I can do when I graduate. I believe there is a recruiter coming soon who is going to talk to be about not only being in the band (because that way i could get some money, its not what i want to do for my whole life) but also looking into other professions within the military that might be suitable for me.
You have to understand that this director has been like a dad to me throughout high school. And he is one that also mentioned me doing military before I even told him it was a consideration, and also he thought maybe even full time and make that my profession.
I'm not really sure how I feel about all of this, all I know is that right now my school work is important and I have not been making it a priority mainly because I've been letting other things distract me (more than just skype and youtube). I'm not too young to be thinking about these things. Whenever people told me that, the years just seemed to roll by, and here I am with no clue what I'm doing. (this is where I need to just take it to God tbh) if you read any part of this, maybe this is the part to read. I'm not saying that you have to know what you want to do right now by any means! But don't just slide it off, keep thinking about the things that you enjoy, and whatever else intrests you.
Don't let other people write your life story. If there is something you want to do and are passionate about it (willing, it is safe and wont hurt other people) then go for it. If you are determined enough, you will be able to get what you want.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Save Me
2 Corinthians 1:3-5 (New International Version)
The God of All Comfort
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ
the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,
4who comforts us in all our troubles,
so that we can comfort those in any trouble
with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives,
so also through Christ
our comfort overflows.
the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,
4who comforts us in all our troubles,
so that we can comfort those in any trouble
with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives,
so also through Christ
our comfort overflows.
The Master Procrastinator
Kristin
man i really need to get started on this homework, but….. lol
my family is watching the football game, i thought it was over, but i guess i was wrong
10:27pmPatrick
oh kristin, your such a procrastonator :p
10:27pmKristin
the best
get this
THIS is how great i am at it lol
chase had to go outside, so i thought ok ok ill get a little break
(this is at about 5) and then i decided to try and teach him how to bring his leash to me
so i would put the loop on his tail, so it would curl into it LOL, and then he looked like he REALLY had to go outside so i quickly took him out
and then i decided to try to teach him again and record it..and getting the camera out was a bad idea, i then recorded me singing a scale kind of, but in different places for different notes and i was going to make a weird song out of it
10:30pm
hahaha
10:30pmKristin
THEN i decided to spin around in circles until i fell, and after that i made all the alphabet letters with my body
i got a REAL bad headache after the spinning, and i still have one, its just gotten worse
10:31pmPatrick
omg. i am laughing so hard right now.
not at you having a headache
but at the whole situation
it is quite humerous
10:31pmKristin
LOL
yeah, if i didnt have a camera, none of that would have happened
and since i still have a headache i havent been able to do my hw lol
*i would like to note that I am procrastinating by doing this right now*
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
The interwebs
Oh where do I even begin
I decided to give a little call to me friend thatzak..tried pranking, being some asian person
(since i guess i look like one..)
And well, i laughed, and my brother heard me and decided to come up and ask "who are you talking to"
I decided to give a little call to me friend thatzak..tried pranking, being some asian person
(since i guess i look like one..)
And well, i laughed, and my brother heard me and decided to come up and ask "who are you talking to"
So I told him my friend zach, long story short, he started talking to me about the internet
and said that I've taken this internet thing too far
and said that I've taken this internet thing too far
It was really bumming me out..just the way he went about telling me and then said "i've been there, I've been a senior before" This really doesnt have much to do with being a senior..maybe the procrastination thing, but not the internet. When I first started off, I was very cautious about everything I do on the internet. I still try and be very careful. I block the creepers, and even though it would be cool to have a bigger audience, I'm content, and if there are weirdo's that I know of...I won't acknowledge them.
BlogTV happened before youtube, but youtube followed quickly after, I didn't even know what a subscriber was. Now I have some people who I really enjoy talking with. I can relate with these people even better than I can with my friends in real life. Pathetic, maybe, but hey. The internet is also a place where you can find people like you, and its great for that...I'm surprised he hasn't said anything about my dad's online dating thing..i mean SERIOUSLY>..my dad was dating a woman in China- even considered moving there..
Anyways, I'm sitting here, trying to do my hw, which I've been saying all day..and It's already Monday. I'll probably be up all night- since I haven't been sleeping until 6:30 am lately anyways
I really love talking to everyone that I get to talk to, so thanks for putting up with me, when no one here wants to..This is the place I go because no one at home will really talk to me. And when I do talk, I just get ignored anyways, so I kind of stopped with that. I love you guys, and Idk who will even see this but, I feel like maybe I can accomplish something now.
BlogTV happened before youtube, but youtube followed quickly after, I didn't even know what a subscriber was. Now I have some people who I really enjoy talking with. I can relate with these people even better than I can with my friends in real life. Pathetic, maybe, but hey. The internet is also a place where you can find people like you, and its great for that...I'm surprised he hasn't said anything about my dad's online dating thing..i mean SERIOUSLY>..my dad was dating a woman in China- even considered moving there..
Anyways, I'm sitting here, trying to do my hw, which I've been saying all day..and It's already Monday. I'll probably be up all night- since I haven't been sleeping until 6:30 am lately anyways
I really love talking to everyone that I get to talk to, so thanks for putting up with me, when no one here wants to..This is the place I go because no one at home will really talk to me. And when I do talk, I just get ignored anyways, so I kind of stopped with that. I love you guys, and Idk who will even see this but, I feel like maybe I can accomplish something now.
Skype Blog? Yes It is
1. Oh my golly! We have not talked in awhile, but I have played some good games with you. Iminlikewithyou :D
2. I never thought I would get to talk to you. I would see your name in all the blogtv rooms and then i saw you has a lot of subs and thought eeeek. now i found out you really dont live in the US?!
3. Oh how i miss talking to youuuuu! It's been forever, and im jealous that you all got to go to that gathering. PJ Party again soon?
4. Your good at blockles....a little toooooo good
5. I would like some candy please ;)
6. You were my first ever online friend, and although we haven't talked in awhile, I hope your life is treating you well. You are awesome, and I hope the best for you =)
7. You randomly added me on skype, and i couldnt believe it. Blogtv is where I first heard of you, and I then thought you were a pretty good guy. you've been through somethings, but i hope we can talk more sometime
8. your a goober
9. You and your pervertedness LOL jk jk, you always try to be a gentleman around me, and i really do appreciate that, thanks :D
10. Schnoogems, you are so sweet, and Sometimes when i brush my teeth, i think about your video when you did it, it makes me giggle---idk why i called you that. i dont think we have EVER been in a call together though :(
11. DMA FTW oh yes! Too many great memories I have had with you, I cant express in words. We need to have a WPU call soon
12. You used to like me ;) Now you have a gf and are never online-Saturday Woop
13. Oh Good Gravy, We had a girl night in Alex's blogtv room after he left, and it was so great, just watching movies while only typing to you 2, one great memory :)
14. I'm jealous that you are really good friends with some people lol, i havent been on skype in awhile, and i feel like ive missed out on so much. I also felt so rude when we first got on a call together
15. You are so sweet, we never really talk, but I think your pretty awesome
16. one call together, we played blockles, your really good with spelling :D lol
blazin Amazin? mhmm i think so
17. (who are you?)=katie...Cade..you Jokester..
18. You have an english accent, and can do handstands very well
19. Wooooooo You rock my socks off...thats all i really know how to put it :D But you are really good at blockles also, and you love being in skype calls :D (im jealous about the youtube karaoke thing, not gonna lie) This is really obvious, lol and it might make it funny..ok i want to go to the next canada gathering! <3 <3 <3
20. You were oped in someones room, and i thought you were super cool...now i dont really talk to you, but im sure you are still nice
21. you have great friends
22. LOL You got skype because I said i would be "skypin all night long" with Jared, i think you were jealous???
23. as soon as you got your computer, you also got on skype, sorry we never talk
24. your not....nahhhh who are you?
25. now, YOU are the best at blockles, and you know how to make me laugh, even though sometimes its creepy i love being sarcastic with you :D
26. You know me from YouTube, and I felt bad for not adding you as a friend, so i added you, but your never on
27. Oh i would really love to talk to you more, your great, and my friends think your great, so your greatxA LOT
28. You did a dance for me, kind of on BlogTV..after Levi poked you into doing it some more, I felt loved, hope your doing well
29. idk you..dont think you will read this anyways--but this is about you :p
30. Your my brother...We skyped when you were in Iraq...and that was all.
31. Jamie, you rock
32. you have a lovely singing voice...i dont like it too much, but i say i do. i havent talked to you in months
33. Youuuu are very mature, funny and :D Love you
34. LOL You said you blocked me. you are still on my contacts list as a ? but i still like to think that someday I will be unblocked
35. Blogtv chats have been great with you. Hope we get to talk more, i think we will be good friends also :)
36. You were also one of the first people I started talking to online, and then you came into my blogtv show onetime and i was like ok ok....got the be cooooool :p although i was in a tent...i guess thats what i think cool is?
37. Your very talented, we have never talked on here before, but you called me sister once, and i thought that was hilarious!
38. your a very sweet boy
39. Thanks for coming to almost all my blogtv shows, I really enjoy getting to talk with you
40. crien team member, you all rock! Thanks for helping us with the WPU website for sending files
41. you knew just how to make me look like a fool..but i thought that If i succeed at doing those things, it would have ruined your game ruining. I think i succeeded. Your pretty cool though, i guess :D
42. Thanks for letting me spill to you sometimes,being one of my first friends on here, and especially for helping me around this youtube thing. Love talking to ya, haven't talked to you in awhile though :(
43. New friends, and hopfully we will help each other with this skype addiction. its going to me mega hard :( but i think that there has to be something we can do about it (send me a skype message and we can think of something LOL) span>
2. I never thought I would get to talk to you. I would see your name in all the blogtv rooms and then i saw you has a lot of subs and thought eeeek. now i found out you really dont live in the US?!
3. Oh how i miss talking to youuuuu! It's been forever, and im jealous that you all got to go to that gathering. PJ Party again soon?
4. Your good at blockles....a little toooooo good
5. I would like some candy please ;)
6. You were my first ever online friend, and although we haven't talked in awhile, I hope your life is treating you well. You are awesome, and I hope the best for you =)
7. You randomly added me on skype, and i couldnt believe it. Blogtv is where I first heard of you, and I then thought you were a pretty good guy. you've been through somethings, but i hope we can talk more sometime
8. your a goober
9. You and your pervertedness LOL jk jk, you always try to be a gentleman around me, and i really do appreciate that, thanks :D
10. Schnoogems, you are so sweet, and Sometimes when i brush my teeth, i think about your video when you did it, it makes me giggle---idk why i called you that. i dont think we have EVER been in a call together though :(
11. DMA FTW oh yes! Too many great memories I have had with you, I cant express in words. We need to have a WPU call soon
12. You used to like me ;) Now you have a gf and are never online-Saturday Woop
13. Oh Good Gravy, We had a girl night in Alex's blogtv room after he left, and it was so great, just watching movies while only typing to you 2, one great memory :)
14. I'm jealous that you are really good friends with some people lol, i havent been on skype in awhile, and i feel like ive missed out on so much. I also felt so rude when we first got on a call together
15. You are so sweet, we never really talk, but I think your pretty awesome
16. one call together, we played blockles, your really good with spelling :D lol
blazin Amazin? mhmm i think so
17. (who are you?)=katie...Cade..you Jokester..
18. You have an english accent, and can do handstands very well
19. Wooooooo You rock my socks off...thats all i really know how to put it :D But you are really good at blockles also, and you love being in skype calls :D (im jealous about the youtube karaoke thing, not gonna lie) This is really obvious, lol and it might make it funny..ok i want to go to the next canada gathering! <3 <3 <3
20. You were oped in someones room, and i thought you were super cool...now i dont really talk to you, but im sure you are still nice
21. you have great friends
22. LOL You got skype because I said i would be "skypin all night long" with Jared, i think you were jealous???
23. as soon as you got your computer, you also got on skype, sorry we never talk
24. your not....nahhhh who are you?
25. now, YOU are the best at blockles, and you know how to make me laugh, even though sometimes its creepy i love being sarcastic with you :D
26. You know me from YouTube, and I felt bad for not adding you as a friend, so i added you, but your never on
27. Oh i would really love to talk to you more, your great, and my friends think your great, so your greatxA LOT
28. You did a dance for me, kind of on BlogTV..after Levi poked you into doing it some more, I felt loved, hope your doing well
29. idk you..dont think you will read this anyways--but this is about you :p
30. Your my brother...We skyped when you were in Iraq...and that was all.
31. Jamie, you rock
32. you have a lovely singing voice...i dont like it too much, but i say i do. i havent talked to you in months
33. Youuuu are very mature, funny and :D Love you
34. LOL You said you blocked me. you are still on my contacts list as a ? but i still like to think that someday I will be unblocked
35. Blogtv chats have been great with you. Hope we get to talk more, i think we will be good friends also :)
36. You were also one of the first people I started talking to online, and then you came into my blogtv show onetime and i was like ok ok....got the be cooooool :p although i was in a tent...i guess thats what i think cool is?
37. Your very talented, we have never talked on here before, but you called me sister once, and i thought that was hilarious!
38. your a very sweet boy
39. Thanks for coming to almost all my blogtv shows, I really enjoy getting to talk with you
40. crien team member, you all rock! Thanks for helping us with the WPU website for sending files
41. you knew just how to make me look like a fool..but i thought that If i succeed at doing those things, it would have ruined your game ruining. I think i succeeded. Your pretty cool though, i guess :D
42. Thanks for letting me spill to you sometimes,being one of my first friends on here, and especially for helping me around this youtube thing. Love talking to ya, haven't talked to you in awhile though :(
43. New friends, and hopfully we will help each other with this skype addiction. its going to me mega hard :( but i think that there has to be something we can do about it (send me a skype message and we can think of something LOL) span>
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