Feeling a little better

Moving has become a much more trying experience than I thought it was going to be. I was spoiled with great friends in Toledo, we hung out every day this summer until all hours of the morning. When I moved I knew it wasn't going to be easy finding new friends, or meeting new people..but I thought it was going to be easier than this. I'm usually a pretty outgoing person, and I warm up to the people I meet very quickly- but here that has not been the case. I've met a few people, but it's been very very difficult. I cannot drive, so i do not have a job and I'm just left at my house during the day while my dog is at work- i have my loyal(ish) dog Chase to keep me some company..it's very lonely, and it's hard.



Other than that, I usually just sit at home trying to think of things to do, be content with myself, and try to not go stir crazy. What gets me so upset is that I know life is precious and short. I want to enjoy every moment, not be bored with life, and if I am bored- change that. Learn something new, try something new- etc. I've done about everything now. One thing that's really kept me going is reading the bible, and rereading prayer journals and journals I've kind of kept up with through the years. After I have a little session with God, I am inspired, full of his Joy, Happy because I know the life I want to live, and I'm ready to live it!!



Then I all of the sudden get more emotional and begin to grow sad and depressed about missing my friends and just feeling completely alone. I try looking up and reminding myself about the things God had just shown me, but I can't seem to turn it around. And I know I can talk to people about this but I choose not to because it's happening so often, and I know they will really only be able to say the same things that they did to me beforehand. This upcoming semester i'm supposed to be working, but since I don't have a license at the moment, I have to wait and stay at the house. I've decided to really use this time to work on myself, my relationship with God, and it's already become a huge challenge.



It's looking like I'll be going to college back near my hometown in the Spring Semester which starts in January..which really inst that far away. But when you have this much alone time with yourself. it makes it very hard. I can't spend this much time with myself. I'm in a much better mood right now than i was when i updated my twitter earlier. This is probably going to change throughout the night though- so be expecting another blog post soon. If you took the time to read this, thank you- i really appreciate it. It's just me rambling about me being annoyed with myself--and ts become this viscous cycle. Do any of you guys have advice possibly? I'm not sure what you could advise on =/



Well I hope you all have a fantastic last few minutes of your night, or a Great Day!! (depending on what time it is where you are)
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