Clearing my head so I can study

Woooo
These are my last exams that I will have to take as a senior.
It's killing me, I really do not want to study but I know that I need to!
And I will study, it's just taking a lot longer to get there than i anticipated. It just seems like the nights are going to fast now, its already 8.


This got me thinking about what it would be like to not be in school..I mean, It's going to be so odd. To think that school is basically all we know, even if we do have a job, or extra curricular activities. I cannot wrap my mind around finally getting out of this school. I remember when I was younger, in elementary school, looking up to the seniors like "Wow, they are soo cool, i want to be like them." and "Man thats sooo far away, its never going to come!"


Now, here I am..senior year, and it's almost over. I am not sure that I'm the senior I wanted to be when I was younger. If anything, I would want to be remembered for the senior who was usually always happy, and tried to make others happy and feel included.

I really have no clue what I'm going to be doing after but I know that I want to help people. I really want to make a difference, and I feel that doing something with Missions is where God might want me. My Band director has been a big help, and is helping me scope out options for what I can do when I graduate. I believe there is a recruiter coming soon who is going to talk to be about not only being in the band (because that way i could get some money, its not what i want to do for my whole life) but also looking into other professions within the military that might be suitable for me.

You have to understand that this director has been like a dad to me throughout high school. And he is one that also mentioned me doing military before I even told him it was a consideration, and also he thought maybe even full time and make that my profession.


I'm not really sure how I feel about all of this, all I know is that right now my school work is important and I have not been making it a priority mainly because I've been letting other things distract me (more than just skype and youtube). I'm not too young to be thinking about these things. Whenever people told me that, the years just seemed to roll by, and here I am with no clue what I'm doing. (this is where I need to just take it to God tbh) if you read any part of this, maybe this is the part to read. I'm not saying that you have to know what you want to do right now by any means! But don't just slide it off, keep thinking about the things that you enjoy, and whatever else intrests you.

Don't let other people write your life story. If there is something you want to do and are passionate about it (willing, it is safe and wont hurt other people) then go for it. If you are determined enough, you will be able to get what you want.